Friday, March 11


Comparison. 

One word that might change someone/something. We can take comparison as a good paradigm to improve our self, but also it can bring our soul to the deepest heart-cracked situation. We can compare other people with us, and set our mind to be the best, not like them or in their way, but in our own way. Sometimes, others are comparing us to other people too. Cannot deny it, right? Especially for teens and students. Hahaha alwayssssss being compared by their parents. Yeah. Parents can compare their children but in a good way. Don't simply like 'your cuzzy iz bettah than yuhhh' or 'this ah boy can do this, yuh cannot aa' or 'why yuh cant be like this child' and so on. Half of this, we, as teens can digest it. Some, are way no. Its kinda mental-scratching and may be a trigger to disappointment or like they never being appreciated. Well, teens are hard to understand. Their emotion can be high, and can be in the lowest point. Nahhh, back to our topic. Comparison. If this thing do in correct way, yes, you already save a person's emotion from drowning. But please, don't compare too much because every single person in this earth has their own capabilities and talent. Who knows they can conquer this entire universe by typing on the keyboard? 

Saturday, February 6

Bebel di pagi Sabtu.

"Wei kau sakit, pergilah UK (unit kesihatan)". 
"Sayang sakit tu. Pergilah UK"
"Kalau sakit pergi check kat UK."
"Kenapa tak datang kelas? MC ada?"

Dude, kenapa aku tak suka pergi UK? Even aku sakit teruk pun aku sanggup pegi hospital yang jauh tu? Sanggup keluar duit dekat klinik swasta? Kenapa ya?

Sebab....

Layanan dorang sangat TERUK! Dari kaunter pendaftaran, dengan tak senyum, dengan main phone sambil cakap dengan kita, dengan marah2, muka masam, tanya kita mcm "KAU PAHAL,SAKIT APA?!" , kau rasa? 

Masuk bilik MA (medical assistant) pula, dengan tak senyumnya, dengan muka masam, tanya SAKIT APA? Kalau dia tanya makan ubat tak? Jawab tak, kena marah ooo! KENAPA TAK MAKAN LAGI? NAK TUNGGU TENGAHARI BARU MAKAN? (ubat tu acidic tau tak?) 
Ni sakit aku dah teruk ni, dia boleh kata aku sihat. Aku baru lepas balik klinik swasta (malam td check) kata aku sakit teruk. MA UK kata awak dah sihat suhu awak normal. GRRRR dengan tak larat, dia tak bagi MC. CHOI LA. 

Keadaan aku makin teruk, pergilah hospital. Amik darah (demam lebih seminggu). Negative dengue. Just throat infection. Dapat MC. Layanan bagus. Sooooo, kau rasa???

Kau sakit teruk, tapi dapat layanan macam tu. Kau rasa apa? Sakit tak hati? Bagi aku, aku boleh lagi tahan sakit demam batuk segala infection, tapi hati aku sakit dapat layanan macam tu boleh tahan? Bukan sekali aku kena, tapi banyak kali. Aku pergi UK pun sebab uitm tak terima MC dari klinik luar, just kerajaan. Kalau dah takda transport nak hantar aku pergi hospital, pergi lah UK nak taknak kan. 

Bukan aku sorang je kena macam ni. Banyak dah aku dengar daripada luahan kawan-kawan aku pasal layanan teruk n susah dapat MC. Kami tau kami student, tapi jangan layan kami macam ni. Kita hormat-menghormati satu sama lain. Tak habis beras pun. Kau dapat gaji tiap bulan, buat lah kerja elok2. Apa guna tampal kertas kat kaunter pendaftaran berbunyi 'anda sopan kami segan, senyumlah, jangan main phone semasa berurusan dan lain-lain' tapi staff sendiri buat macam tu? 

Susah ke senyum? Tanya elok dengan lembut. Kan sedap mata dan telinga menghadap situasi macam tu. Kalau korang kat tempat kami, dilayan sebegitu rupa, kau yg sakit tu mesti kata "aku rela sakit dari pergi check-up" or "Aku rela mati je dari dilayan macam ni". Aku dah lali.

Please lah, ubah attitude, 

SHOW RESPECT, EARN RESPECT.

xoxo

Tuesday, January 26

Dark elixir.

Guess that someone has drinking up a tons of dark elixir. That spell has concealing their heart with hatred and dumbness. You know why? Because they can't think wisely. They keep following their emotion or somewhat we can call their ass. Emotion are created from our heart. If there's no dirt scattered on our heart, or maybe a little, it might be easy to control that EMOTION thing. I've conclude that to erase the dirt you have to sacrifice a lot. You have to CHANGE. CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE. CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION (the way you think). 

Somehow, transformation can be hard too. Still, what i can say is, its depends on our self. Just like a torchlight. If you got a good battery, it will shine brighter and vice versa. Positive attitude should be implemented. 

If hatred seeds has been dig into your soil of heart, please, dig it up and throw it away. Its no good at all. This factor can lead to separation and crashing the relationship that you have built or preserved for a long time. Flashback to the old times. How we loved each other, how we helped each other. 

Yeap. Dark elixir are everywhere. In many forms. In many shape. In many ways it can camouflage itself and you might get a sip of it, so be careful. People nowadays constantly want to drag each other down until to the center of the earth, so they might be powerful. 

Stay away from dark elixir, but stay inside our God's love. 

best regards,
Suziey.

Saturday, December 12

Nowadays, for me, good friends are hard (extremely hard) to find. Whoever can stand by your side by thick and thin, don't lose them. But people seems to take advantages over other people. That is why we can't being sooooo nice to anyone. They might stab you with a katana from the back. Dude, friends like that for me is not worth it to cry for, to mourn for and to be with.

These kinda people usually be nice to us when need something or need our help. (BAM! YOU'RE NOT DESERVED TO BE HELPED BY ME! BUT BECAUSE I'M TOO NICE SO YEAH). These fellow friends will forget about you once they happy, or got other friends.

Anyone here got some friends like what i've mention above, you may slowly scrap their name and 'BEST FRIEND' title from your heart. Then, throw it into the hell. Don't treat anyone so nice until you get hurt because of them. Wasting of your time.

Go along with someone or anyone who deserved to be your friends.

Sunday, November 15

I missed you. Did you feel the same?

When missing you,
I'll let your voice sing for me,
Your fingers strumming the guitar,
In a virtual way.

-Suziey E.,2015-

Wednesday, November 11

No one can't drag you down.

Greetings everyone. So tonight, I'll babbling about self confidence. Why this topic? Because some of my friends asked me how in the world i got a very highly intense level of self confidence. How can i confront the crowd on the stage? How? HAHAHA. LOL.

Back to school era, am the one who hardly being shy <assumed by my gang>. (Hey, am shy okey). We got this nasty presentation and my bestie got her nerve out of her back. She asked me, how do control that nervous feeling? Me said.. I donno!

Actually, am just being myself. Just do it and ignore your surrounding.

Back to reality nowadays, am scrolling instagram. Am found a few of hot girls instagram account. Shit they're really hot and beautiful. And their age is 15 years old, i was like HOLY CRAP. They're like 25 something at my first glance. Yeah, then am comparing myself to them. Damn. Am nothing. Like beauty and the beast! I started to wander my thoughts. Am started to feel like am damn ugly. Am started to feel like am wanna be le beau est jolie as them. PAP! I can't.

I can't because i have to be myself. Am was thinking, am good in cooking, baking and some other stuffs, but they're only good in selfies and fashion. Damn it. My point here is, we all have special abilities. Dorang mungkin famous kat insta tapi tak semestinya dorang bagus. Dorang famous sebab cantik, tayang badan and so on.

Aku positifkan diri dengan cakap macam tu. Well, most of the girls nowadays can't cook even potong bawang pun tak reti. Selfie ngan makeup fashion and clubbing pandai. Padahal umur baru nak baligh.
Jangan laa terasa rendah diri hanya sebab kecantikan luaran orang lain. Pandang diri sendiri, baiki diri sendiri.

Kalau berjaya pun kau yang bahagia, kau gagal lak kau susah pastu orang gelakkan.

My post kali ni bersepah. Ini je terbuku dalam hati aku. HAHAHA.

JADILAH DIRI SENDIRI.

DON'T FAKE YOURSELF.

Monday, November 9

Hello to the hell and O!

So hey you there. The one who's reading my post here. Yeah you! Are you reading it alone or there's someone behind you? If its human, its fine. But if not, I'm sorry, I can't help it.

Well, some superstitious people will freak out. Damn it right? But you know? There's something gonna follow you everywhere. Even when you're asleep, they be there. What? Scared?

I wanna ask you. What do you usually think before going to bed? Your problems? Really? Dig that in the ground and covered it with soil then put some gravestone on it.

But, the things that you just bury gonna awaken again. It never die unless you're death or strong enough to put it aside or you're just read a mantra to lock it in there. Creepy? Nope.

Smile creatures, if you know what i mean.